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I’d go to the ends of the earth for you, to make you feel my love.

Go Figure.

You noticed me like I noticed you.
We just wouldn’t admit it.
We both were afraid to love again.
Scarred, terribly, from the past.
Acceptance. We accepted. We let our guards down.
We were in love.
I doubted. You doubted. Our friends doubted. your friends doubted. Fool, you.
I let mine get the better of me. So did you.

Now we’re lonely, lost souls.
Searching. Unknowingly looking for the one thing we’re most afraid of.
each other

Dear you,

It’s kind of funny, how life works sometimes. It takes awhile for
things that mattered once to be unimportant. I think of you a lot
sometimes. I think of the time we could have spent together. Goodness,
sometimes I wish you never left. I wish you stayed a bit longer and
witnessed all of the things I wished for to happen. I let go some of
the memories we made and that made me so sad. I know that life doesn’t
pause for those who are sad. But gosh, I wish it did. It is hard for
me to watch everyone keep living while I am here struggling. I made
all kinds of promises that I knew I would keep, but you left anyway. I
promised to love you, take care of you, and make you feel happy, but
you left anyway. I wish you didn’t. I wanted out lives to become one.
I wanted you to love me back just as much as I loved you and not leave
like all of the things I did and said were nothing. I wanted you to
realise that my life was somehow linked to yours. And that it would
take awhile for things to be okay after what happened. The bottom
line is, I loved you. I still love you. And i always hoped for you to
stay with me. And now, with you being gone, things seem to be dull and
unimportant; because you mattered to me more than everything else.
There will be life after this sadness, I know that, but I wish there
wasn’t. Because that means things will be different and I will keep
living knowing that there is someone kissing you or taking you out on
dates. So, this is a reminder that on matter what happens, you will
always be in my heart. I will hope you keep on living even though a
part of me hopes that you don’t. I hope you travel like you always
always wanted. And hope you get happy. Because I believe that things
happen for a reason regardless of how good or bad they are. I hope you
get the strength to leave everything that makes you sad behind. And if
I am one of those things, I hope you leave me behind and stop thinking
of me. I just want you to be happy. And don’t worry about me, I will
find my way out of this.

I know we ended it before it started – whatever we had going on between
us – but know that it meant something to me. There are so many things I
want to say but no proper way to say them. I will keep listening to
your favourite songs and read your favourite books until I meet someone
else that becomes what reminds me of them. I will carry on. And I hope
you do that, too.



I did not write this.
Credit it due to Abraham M. Alghanem.
every. word.
describes exactly how I feel.
I wouldn’t change a thing.

Thank you for your love.


I know that some things take time
I don’t like to think so
Because I want you now
In my arms
So I can kiss you a
And make you laugh

I wish you were here
Or I was there.

If I has less than a minute to live
I would kiss you
Again and again
As if the world was ending
And you’re the only thing left to love.

I wish you were here
So I could hold you like the Earth holds the oceans
And kiss you like the rain kisses the lonely.

I will love you
Until Niagara stops falling
And the earth swallows all oceans

I won’t forget you
Or your smile
Because it takes a life time to forget things that beautiful.

You are broken
You are sad
You hate yourself as much as you hate school
You think too much
About unimportant things
And you let them get to you
You cry yourself to sleep
You hurt yourself
And you think that you don’t deserve anything good
But I promise you
With everything in me
That one day
You will still feel the tears of happiness
You will stop crying so much
And you will love yourself
I promise you that one day
Someone will call you beautiful
And they will make you feel it too
I promise you that you will be loved
With all of your flaws and insecurities
I promise.

People change either for someone
Because of someone.

I can’t make you hurt less. I can’t take your pain and bury it in me;
deep down for it to hurt me too. I am too messed up, too sad, and far
too selfish. I can’t make myself happy. I can’t make promises I know I
can’t keep. I am always in need for someone. Even though I know I
don’t deserve anyone. I am sorry, but all I can do is love you. I
might not love you in the way you want me to, or be there for you all
the time. But I will love you. And I hope that is enough.

Love always,


Things you need to know about me:

I like to be alone. I like spending time with nothing else but books
or just a pillow and a blanket. I tend to over-think the smallest
things, because I think that if I don’t, they will hurt me more than
what they’re supposed to. I love books to the point where I want to
die reading, because I know I will be happy. I don’t show my joy
that often. I like to keep these little things and little smiles to
myself. Because when things get hard, they’re all I have. I need
you to tell me that you’re lucky to have me every now and then. I need
to know that you will still feel the same way then you hug me, kiss
me, or make love to me. There will always be good things happening
around us, but I want you to know that I will only care about you. I
won’t pay attention to anything else but you. I will love with my
whole heart and more. I will stay up until you fall asleep, and kiss
your lips when you wake up. I will buy you presents even when you tell
me not to. I will kiss your cheeks, hold you hand, and make you laugh
when it is hard to laugh. I am just like that. When I love someone, I
love them with everything in me. Because I always think that if I
don’t, they will look for love somewhere else. And I hope you
understand my need to be alone sometimes. I just really need it,
because it is the only time when I am actually not afraid of thinking
or just feeling sad. Don’t worry, though, I will keep looking at the
night sky and notice beautiful things; I will keep kissing your lips,
and asking you for help when I need it. I will love you. My sadness
will never stop me from loving you, ever.

Love always,


I went to bed too many times
Hoping to wake up with the thought of you fading away
But every time I get up
I find myself wishing you’d stay
In my head and in my heart
Because they’re empty
And hollow
And dark
It’s better to have memories of someone who left
Than having nothing at all.

I want to kiss you a thousand times
Until the taste your lips give stays on mine
I want to kiss where your heart is
And where your wounds ache
I want to kiss your cheeks
Your eyelids
And the soft spots behind your ears
I want to kiss you all over
Because I don’t want you to be hurting anywhere.

You shouldn’t laugh or smile
With anyone but me
Because I know you
And what you have been through
I understand why you frown
And why you cry
You can breakdown or be happy
It wouldn’t matter
Because I’ll understand
You’ll be safe
With me.

I kiss you
You kiss me back
I hug you
You hug me back
We go to sleep together
And wake up holding each other
Mornings are the best times of my life
Because I am always with you
Touching your back
And running my fingers through your hair
But I am terrified that someday
You’ll wake up feeling differently.

I want to be happy
But it is too late
Because my eyes are already tired
My soul is worn through
I have lost myself
And you too.

I know I am hard at times
So hard that I don’t even imagine someone being in love with me
I know how sad I am
And how I am feeling all the time
But you are always here
I love you
I really do
But I don’t know why you have never left
Because you can get anyone in the world
I don’t know why you chose me
I am sorry though
For putting you through hell
And never telling you how I feel
I am sorry for being sad
And unhappy
Even though you try your best to make me feel like that
I am sorry we never been on the same page
But please know that it is hard for me to make someone love me
Because everyone I let in left at the end
I hope you stay though
And love me more
I’ll hurt you
And I’ll make you upset
But I’ll love you with all of my heart.

One sided love is not your fault,
Or theirs,
It just is, and always will be
A cause of heartache.
In which you will drown,
Until you find someone who will love you enough to save you
From your own sea of tears.



Are we back to crying ourselves to sleep at night?

Are we back to being the only one trying to salvage what’s left of this… Mess?

Are we back to pretending we’re okay with something when we’re not?

I guess so.