Who are we?

A random thought popped in my head while at lunch today: “Who am I?” I asked myself.

If you know me well enough, you’d know that I have two twitter accounts.
I tweet stupid nonsense at @juliennekayla.
and the truth at @jmksjmks.

So I was tweeting shit (fuck my feelings) at @Juliennekayla and retweeting nonsense and all that jazz…
and when I went over to @jmksjmks and read my own(@juliennekayla) tweets, I felt like I didn’t know who I was… Like I wasn’t who I really am.. like I put up some sort of facade. It only seemed like it. If it was truly a facade, I’d know it. but to be so so sooo honest, I don’t.

I feel like I’m so many completely different persons and i’m just waiting for someone to love all the faces of me. Good, bad, happy or sad.

I’m just so lost and confused.

Then F replied me with a post, something about never being able to identify who you really are and I understood (not really), that you’ll never understand.

They say you know yourself best. and I don’t doubt that at all.
but isn’t it scary to know that the person who knows you best, is yourself? but you don’t know yourself at all?

These thoughts kill me. every time.

Though I know i’ll never know who I really am, It’s not going to stop me from trying.
I’m going to take time to try to understand myself better.

Till then.



“This is how you lose her.
You lose her when you forget to remember the little things that mean the world to her: the sincerity in a stranger’s voice during a trip to the grocery, the delight of finding something lost or forgotten like a sticker from when she was five, the selflessness of a child giving a part of his meal to another, the scent of new books in the store, the surprise short but honest notes she tucks in her journal and others you could only see if you look closely.

You must remember when she forgets.

You lose her when you don’t notice that she notices everything about you: your use of the proper punctuation that tells her continuation rather than finality, your silence when you’re about to ask a question but you think anything you’re about to say to her would be silly, your mindless humming when it is too quiet, your handwriting when you sign your name in blank sheets of paper, your muted laughter when you are trying to be polite, and more and more of what you are, which you don’t even know about yourself, because she pays attention.

She remembers when you forget.

You lose her for every second you make her feel less and less of the beauty that she is. When you make her feel that she is replaceable. She wants to feel cherished. When you make her feel that you are fleeting. She wants you to stay. When you make her feel inadequate. She wants to know that she is enough and she does not need to change for you, nor for anyone else because she is she and she is beautiful, kind and good.

You must learn her.

You must know the reason why she is silent. You must trace her weakest spots. You must write to her. You must remind her that you are there. You must know how long it takes for her to give up. You must be there to hold her when she is about to.

You must love her because many have tried and failed. And she wants to know that she is worthy to be loved, that she is worthy to be kept.

And, this is how you keep her”

5 Reasons Women Can’t Stand Passive Men

Thought Catalog


What do women want? If you don’t care, this article isn’t for you. However, when a real man meets a special lady, he will most certainly care about her, and what it takes to keep her interested. Some modern men may believe that chivalry and courting are old fashioned, unnecessary tactics of impressing the woman they desire, and have become passive in their pursuit. The sexy and aggressive alpha-male has become a diamond in the rough, making way for the rise of the lazy man, and the Lazy Courtship. It happens because women let men get away with it. Low self-esteem causes some women to settle for less, or as some suggest, becoming the new men – aggressively going after what they want to make up for the aggressiveness men are lacking.

Gentlemen: Whether you are looking for a special lady or have found one, how is your passive…

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