As a child, I always believed I had a split personality… I named her Francesca.
I think she’s real?
Recently, I’ve been feeling.. nothing.
I can’t be happy for long, or sad.
I feel, then I don’t.
“Yes, I’d rather hurt than feel nothing at all.”
I caught me talking to myself the other day…
I am being absolutely honest here when I say that I didn’t know what I was doing, but when I realised what I was doing, I was saying “I’m just going to give up”.
So i basically caught myself talking to myself… if that even makes sense.
And I’ve been playing scenes in my head over and over again…
My head is messing with me and I can’t take it.
Am I going crazy?
In psych, I learnt more about the multiple personality disorder…
Could I have it? just not so sever?
I really don’t know whats going on, My moodswings, my zoning out, I’m becoming someone i don’t want to be… And as much as I try, I can’t go back to being who I used to be.
Why? Why now?